Time catches up

Time can also be the end for some - it was for me.

I know, it has been a long time and I could not begin to tell you what I have been doing for 5 months. It seems like just yesterday I blooged about that stupid mountain off the 5 Freeway, but then I realized - as I drove to LA yesterday morning - I had the same thought as I had the last time I drove by that stupid mountain. So at least some things do not change.

So where have I been... Well July/August I found my time being spent in LA at my theater, The Elephant Theatre; co-directing a play called One Fell Swoop. The show received fabulous reviews and come Septemer 3rd my job was done and it was time to move on - the show was well into the throws of it so I set out on a 4500 mile drive across the Western US. This was a 17 day camping journey that made my time here on earth grounded.

AND Lately I have jumped right into the deep, deep end of the Elephant again and have taken on a much anticipated role as Director of Development. The past two months has been a crazy organized and healthy chaotic time. I am thankful yet it feels like I have run out of time.

You see -- I have no had time to be sad. There is something to be said about being in touch with emotions - it is healthy at least to me. It keeps me sane and keeps me in this very moment of time. I have not had too much time to just "be" lately. But then time caught up with me. I lost a friend last week. This friend was not someone I grew up with or even someone that knew my family. This is someone that made each of of my days that much better by simply saying hello and asking about my cat and smiling at me and giving me a sense of calm. I worked with him and he made a difference in my life. When I heard the knews that I will not be able to ever see him again - I weeped. I weeped most of the night and again the next day. You see - there are people who are simple in our lives and make all the difference in their simplicity. Sometimes it does not take knowing all of a person's life long baggage to really care about them. Sometimes it's not the amount of time you know them or the amount of time you spend with them - BUT that you had the time to appreciate them and what they brought to your life.

I am glad time caught up with me - it will slow me down and allow me to be my sad, sad, overdramatic and overthinking self.

I missed me.